||[Apr. 1st, 2010|08:36 pm]
just gonna put this on lj for shits and giggles. basically, claire and i are going to be putting up some of our accumulated makings (claire has a lot of fibers, 3D art, i have photos, we both have sketches/drawings), super informal/fun, and you should come.
Saturday April 10 - confluences//elegance//scribbles
5PM claire's house, snax+vino
i am really looking forward to this after a spring break that embodied in many ways a life i am terrified of living/afraid of never having. i guess that is family.
anyway, a lot to celebrate too, like FINALLY BEING FULLTIME AT THE UO jesus christ. i will graduate in a year. i like having that timeline. i finally have some momentum after so many moronic setbacks, yet there is this pervasive lonliness that i think is a result of how i will never be close to my mom's side of the family, the anonimity of large classes, and just not seeing friends/wondering if we are even friends anymore. i'm seeing these divisions and shifts in who i do/don't spend time with. i have also really been wanting to visit colorado in may, because it will be my last chance to see those people, to revisit that moment in time of my life while it still exists. but maybe i just need to let it be. (and not spend $500 on a planeticket). i hate that that some people i don't see anymore because of what happened between them and someone else.
so, i'm seeing this thing with claire as a chance to share something of ourselves because we love you and like seeing you all together.